I wish I was stronger

Yes, I wish I was stronger, you know I gave in to temptation this week I watched the P word again and did the immoral deed again.

I don’t do it all the time, but the more I try to get over it the more I think about it. I don’t know what to do… I fast, go to church, tithe, volunteer, etc etc, but I can’t seem to conquer this. I know a part of me likes it, so I believe I self-sabotage myself.

Also, I would like to confess my other sins to ya all…I am a really grumpy person at heart when I am by myself, but when I am around others I am super patient and easygoing.

Also, I swear a lot, and give people I don’t like funny, not mean, Nicknames that fit their ass-like behavior. I have had a lot of evil thoughts and angry feelings lately. I am a mess. God forgive an old worn out sinner, though I can be a mean bastard please take care of me and bring me back into your fold.